Colour of the wind

Today, I feel very negative with a stupid call
I do not know why he changed but make me mad about him
Why I wrote in English because I don't want he disturb again my life
He do not understand, that why I try write in proper way, my broken English okay?
So, what the propose today and what will going on? I seriously don know!
Actually, I feel very suffer about my sick and it very harmful about my life
When I know the report, I keep silent few second and think wao! like movie
If uyou know your life become short , shorter , and maybe one day?
What you should do? And what you want to do? And who is your partner at the end of life?
I really don't know, teacher don't tell me, novel also did't write about end of the life story
But when I know my life is very shorter than other, then I should work harder before I leave
I want my family feel okay even I not around here but the lifestyle has been changed
They have a more better enviroment, they have some special activities in weekends
They feel freedom about their life cause I leave, they still live together, happiness and healthy.
Maybe I like a wind, blow in your heart, or also nothing, cant see or hold but can feel my wind?
I don't know next day is my life or my end, I only noe I focus what I want and be No.1
I not lie, not person who say only. I do it with action and even tired keep go beyong!
God, if you know what I feeling, I hope u can pray for me, I hope all will be okay.
I don't scare die, but I scare leave, leave my family, frens and buddy! come on!
cheer up!! Ms Chai Hui Yee, U still can walk! talk! sleep! learn! Action Be No.1!